![]() It also feels like I never need to prove anything to any of them. Being painfully alone right now, all I can think about is how lucky I am to have the family and the friends that I have. There are no shortages of opportunities every day. They’re here to remind us that we can be significant to others and to make others feel significant. They’re here to keep us humble and to awe us, but they are not here for comparison. Their beauty is explained in light years and in fathoms. Tonight it feels accurate for another reason: compared with the stars and ocean you are a spec of dust. It never felt good to accept insignificance but it felt accurate. I’ve heard so many times people mention this feeling of insignificance and being small or a spec of dust against these. Sitting alone and scared with only a fire, you feel insignificant against these tremendous creations. I was inspired to write this entry partly because of the stars and the ocean. I don’t think I have ever in my life sat still for that long just staring and appreciating something. They slowly faded to the right behind a tree then back into the jungle. It was the most scared I’ve ever been in my life-it seemed smart to run into the ocean with all my clothes on in the pitch black.Īnd yet, in what was one of the most beautiful moments of my life, I was sitting on a log in front of a fire with the ocean to my left, the jungle to my right and every single star in the sky as clear as day. I’m positive they were eyes because I did not blink or take the flashlight off them. It was in front of me and I immediately put my flashlight in that direction. I kept trying to fall asleep but I had to sleep so close to the fire that I was being awakened by the heat.Īt one point I heard what sounded like something drop and roll down the cliff. Living this experience even for a short time was one of the best and worst things I’ve ever done.įeeling painfully alone and helpless between some of the loudest waves crashing and the weirdest sounds coming from the jungle puts your mind in a foreign state. I kept a journal that I could barely see and wrote down every thought that came to mind. Occasionally, however, some of your thoughts seem focused and they arrive at crystal clear personal maxims like what and who matters to you and what type of person you’d like to be. ![]() You have a thousand thoughts at once but your mind is still empty because none stick. And when you’re trying to sleep in a 20 yard space between the ocean and the jungle with no one around, your thoughts become racy and all over the place. Yeah, there were physical challenges like finding drinking water and food, but the biggest challenge is your own thoughts and psychology when it’s dark, when there’s no one around, you can’t sleep, there’s nothing to do, you’re thirsty, hungry, and you’re incredibly lonely.Īt about 7 o’clock in the evening, it becomes very dark. My own internal lie detector kept shutting down the superficial wannabe profound thoughts that were coming up for topics. To be honest, I’ve been thinking about what to write about this experience for awhile. ( Above is a distant picture of me gathering firewood just before the sun went down.) My intention was to try survival camping for the whole eleven days-as in find my own food and water while making shelter on a secluded beach somewhere. I left the country with a passport, goggles, one change of clothes, a knife, flashlight, and $50 my brother gave me when he dropped me off at the airport. I just got back from an 11 day trip to Mexico. It was an experiment in changing environments, overcoming challenges, and self-exploration. I asked to publish his story when he returned. ![]() Recently, Paul told me he was flying to Sayulita, Mexico for 11 days with only a passport and a book. Window.APP_STATE = JSON.Editor’s note: I have gotten to know Paul DeJoe during the past several months over coffee and phone calls. All rights reserved.SupportTerms of UsePrivacy Polic圜ookie PolicyDo Not Sell My Personal Information ![]() #Alone dropped into the wilderness installPlease enable it or install a modern browser that support JavaScript.ĬareersPartnersAbout usWhere to watchSupportThis feature is coming soon.We’re currently working on it! Thanks for your patience.About UsOur StoryLeadershipNewsPressCareersBecoming A CitizenResponsibilitiesPerksWhere To WatchSmart TVStreaming DevicesMobile AppDesktop AppWatch on the webAccessibilityPartnersDistributionContent ProvidersAdvertisers© 2022 Pluto Inc. This website needs JavaScript to work properly. ![]()
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